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January 13th, 2011
08:57 am

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i got a new job. im getting a new apartment. im getting a dog. things are getting better...finally. still doesn't mean i don't miss 1 year ago. get over yourself, amanda. you're not worth the trouble to put effort into i guess. worse things have happened to better people but i guess people don't know how to handle situations anymore. let's just go back.

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December 12th, 2010
06:06 pm

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life can just be too damn complicated at times.

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November 24th, 2010
09:32 am

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wah wah wah. that's all this is good for, really. but it's a bum fest 2010

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November 2nd, 2010
04:25 pm

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"tomorrow will be better. tomorrow might not be tomorrow, but it will come." my grampy used to say that to me when i was sad and now i finally understand.

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October 11th, 2010
07:49 am

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brain,
stop fucking dreaming about him everynight. you're driving me crazy.

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September 25th, 2010
01:31 am

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projectile vomit all over the place.

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August 27th, 2010
06:04 pm

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i'm forced to start a new chapter. it's bitter sweet. so many emotions are flowing through my veins up to my heart and it's killing me slowly. I need to get through these next four months. I need to focus on school and graduating. Nothing else can really be that important right now. I know I'll think about him everyday and miss him everyday but it's just something I need to get over. 6 months...6 fucking months and i still feel just as terrrible. when you know, you know...

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August 8th, 2010
09:46 pm

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things are weird. i know what i want. and i know what i don't. i know what i can get and it's not what i want.

school is going to start soon and i want to die. but, i'll be done in december. done. graduated. i'll be an adult with a real job. no working and going to school at the same time. i don't want to do it though. i dont think i can go through another semester.

i love who i love and i dislike people and i won't hide it anymore. there's no point in running away from feelings and pretending they aren't there. it makes thing worse.

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May 2nd, 2010
10:00 am

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ugh...the summer makes me think of quarries, minigolf, outside adventures, kisses, getting lifted up in cute summer dresses, ninja turtles icecream...

i don't enjoy these things anymore without sebastian. i love him so much and it hurts my insides...i don't know what to do anymore. i just feel dead.

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April 6th, 2010
05:14 pm

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it's been a month and i still feel empty and like death. i'm trying. i'm doing a bunch of stuff to try and make me feel better but it doesn't really help. i miss it, everything about it and it makes me bummed i can't do anything more to change it. i know it's what i want but i can't do anything anymore...nothing i do will change what happens.

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